Last week, I was talking to my brother and my parents about college, the most popular topic in my house at the moment. We talked about some possibilities of colleges around the world that I could go to, but after a long chat, another topic came up... what's next? The next thing we were talking about was where I was supposed to go after college, a question that nobody in this world could answer and this is because well, there is no answer.
You see, I've had a crazy life for the past 17 years. this life has consisted in moving country every 2 or 3 years, which has allowed me to know many places, many people and many cultures around the world. Although it's been some unstable years, I wouldn't change this experience for anything in the world. The thing is, I haven't been stable since the day I was born, never. My first move was when I was less than 1-year-old and the last one was one year ago, meaning that I have no idea how it is to settle down in one single place for your whole life. And that's where the first struggle comes in. Home. Where am I going to live when I grow up? Many people don’t worry about this because they are sure they will return to their roots, to their home, to the country where they were born and raised, but in my case, where is home? I was raised in many different countries. I could say I was born in Ecuador, but I moved when I was a little baby, so do I really feel identified with this country? Are these my roots? Definitely not. The second struggle would be stability. What does this mean? For me, it's very hard to define it. The only thing I know about stability is that I want it, but I just wonder if I could maintain it. During my whole life, I have never been stable in one place, I have been more like a nomad, changing my location all the time. So, can I handle stability? Sometimes I just think about how my life would have been if I stayed in Ecuador for the past 17 years, but then I remember how after living a while in a country, my natural instinct is waiting for the next move to happen, I am craving a change. So, will I be able to stay in college for 4 or 5 years? And after college, will I be able to live in one country for the rest of my life? Sounds scary to me. Many people say that home is where family is, and in one aspect, I totally agree. On the other hand, I have never lived in the same country as the rest of my family, meaning my cousins, aunts, grandparents. I see them once per year or every two years. And about my close family, I don't think it would be right to move every time my parents and sisters do so because how am I going to settle in one place and start a life if I keep moving around? Thus, I have no idea what I am going to do after college, I don't even know where I am going to study yet. But the only thing I can say right now is to enjoy the experience that I have been given and get the best out of all the travelling and instability I have been through. Maybe this has been a warm-up, a preparation for what is about to come. I just need to wait until that moment comes. Maybe destiny will lead me to one place, or maybe I will keep being a nomad for the rest of my life...
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